So Long...

Just a word, and it has nothing to do w/ Carlos Zambrano's no-hitter yesterday...

It seems fucking stupid to say this at your blog, but where else can you say it? I can't begin to express how hard the suicide of David Foster Wallace hit me. All the more reason for not say anything, Right? Still...

David Foster Wallace was the real deal: a "genius" if such a thing exists. (He had an award that says he was!) He was so far beyond most people who try to write... That's not to say that you shouldn't try. I don't know much about the guy, but my suspicion is that he would want you to write. (Possibly because he'd want to see what you came up w/.)

I also don't mean that you might not be a better writer than him if you did try. You should. Write. I only mean that the man understood language and that he was compelled by the curious twisting of ideas of both the real and made-up kinds. And somehow these traits (and prob. others that I know nothing about) allowed him to express so many things so beautifully--most notably, to me, the expression of loneliness and of the desire to connect w/ others around you--no matter how imperfect you or they are.

Some people called Infinite Jest, his best known book, gimmicky, but for all its twists and turns--which I also enjoyed--what spoke to me the most was its heart.

And to watch somebody who could create that--who is so far beyond me in areas of my life that mean a great deal to me--to see him destroyed just tastes like copper and shit. It's just as desolate as a car-less 3 a.m./3 mile walk home from the bar in the dead of winter. It's worse than the hangover you have the next morning--the kind where you're still puking, altho' you're sober. It's one more piece of evidence in the ol' life sucks case-file, that I, as a P.I., have been looking into.

If it came to that for him, how are so many other things gonna end up? And what kinda stupid ass world is this if that's where things can go?


Anyway, like I said, I really know very little about the dude, so I'll just be grateful for his writing and how in a small way, it made me feel and see differently. Then I'll shut the fuck up...